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A young teacher who killed herself in a suspected internet suicide pact sent a dozen goodbye messages to her family and friends, her devastated mother has revealed.
Jenny Spain, 23, was found dead in the back of a fume-filled car yesterday with a man she is believed to have met over the internet.
Her mother Rita, 48, today told how Miss Spain posted a heartbreaking five-page suicide note to her saying she was 'tormented by my own mind'.
She also revealed how a 'dozen' of her family and friends received suicide notes just a day after her body was discovered. She added: 'All the letters were full of love. She was unselfish.'
Her mother, who lived with Jenny in their family home in Deptford, South London, said: 'Jenny had depression and it was very serious. She kept a lot from us because in her mind that protected her.
'I used to beg her psychiatrist, who she regularly saw, to tell me what I could do to support her at home. All I wanted was to help her.'
She told how Jenny, who had two elder sisters, used to love life and even got 13 A* at GCSE level.
She graduated with a first class honours degree from Brunel University and in 2008 was named Best Mathematics Student at the 2008 Engineering and Technology Student of the Years Awards.
She was a popular maths teacher at Chace Community College, in Enfield, North London, where she worked. She also tutored maths and music in her spare time.
Her mother added: 'She was unbelievably clever. She loved books. When little girls wanted dollies she wanted encyclopedias.
'Nobody knows where she got her brains from, she was incredibly talented getting 13 A* at GCS
'She even once got an award for being the top mathematician in the country.
'She was a happy-go-lucky person. She was constantly smiling but inside she was, as she said in her letter "in bits", and she kept it from us because she felt she had to.
'Everything about her death is hard to process. In her letter she talks about being broken and how no one had the tools to fix her.'
She also revealed how Jenny had tried to kill herself before and blamed the NHS for not treating her depression with enough seriousness.
Rita added: 'There were difficult times when she had tried to take her life before but her psychiatrist kept that from me.
'Jenny would phone the police asking for help when she got seriously down and she would often go missing.
'The NHS knew the severity of her mind. They knew she needed help and they failed her big time. I begged them to help her - to help her family help her.
'It was all talk and no action. For them Jenny was not a person just a box to tick on the job.'
'The last line of Jenny's letter read, "I'm crying as I write this and I know you'll be crying too."
'She was a beautifully talented loving daughter. If I knew she had been on the internet sites I would have smashed the computer apart to save her. Every moment and memory is precious.'
The bodies of Jenny and 37-year-old NHS worker Mark Searle, of Hailsham, East Sussex, were found inside of a Ford Ka, believed to belong to Jenny, on Monday.
Last night, a police source said: 'There is no obvious link between them. We're investigation whether they knew each other before this.
'The car was down a little track out of the way of everyone. They obviously didn't want to be found.'
The circumstances of the couple's death is similar to that of Joanne Lee, 34, and Steve Lumb, 35, who met online and killed themselves in a fume-filled car in Braintree, Essex, last September.
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